A Great Outing

Depression is a bitch. You sit in your misery only wanting the negative feelings to stop pounding against the walls you are building making you numb to the world around you. In dealing with it, you can let it swallow you whole or continue from it. During my last episode, I sat on the couch and consumed myself with book after book trying to escape.

Overwhelmed with work and life, my support system  ran out. Even if my support system was near, I would hide. 

It would have continued if not for my outgoing friend, Rose. She would invite me to outings. Even though I know how I feel and don't want to go out. I know regardless if its today or two days from now I will want to say no. So, my advice, say yes. Going out can improve your mood so much, especially the outdoors. 

I was invited in a group out to the botanical garden. A time to quietly walk through flowers in pretty dresses. Though it being in the 80s and me not liking the heat, the shaded areas and the cool breezes help so much. From doing a scavenger hunt to feeding the koi fish, it was a lovely weekend with quirky people I only see once a month. 

Afterwards, we went to an elegant tea house. The place was located in a brick shopping area. Walking through the door, I felt a shift in the air. It was fresh and empowering. The walls of white and navy blue held a modern look to them. The crystal chandeliers hung over the marble tables with plush deep blue cushions. Do not get me started on the topic of the bird lanterns! They were amazing. 

Most find the muttering of multiple people overwhelming but for me I vibe in a busy area. People watching is my favorite hobby. I'll take a book and read as I peek over it to observe others. I didn't get much reading done as it would be rude to do so with a group. So I sat quietly and watched and joined in conversation when I could. I'm not the best at group conversations. Too many things happening at once. On rare days of loneliness I find myself loathing the quiet and emptiness of being alone. I think back to my time out with friends and realize a simple outing and a delicate tea can make life a little bit better.